this is me...

in all the chaos i forgot to tell you...i got the job at red lobster...i will be a hostess....and i make $7.50 an hour...whooowhoo...kewl right?...ok ttyl

hmmm...lets see how was my weekend....well friday was fine...but saturday...ahhh...there was an executive meeting....ahhhh....jenelle and i decided it would be best to put the ben and eb stuff out in the open but that backfired just a tad....it hit like a ton of bricks..they both got furious but it seemed liek they were more mad at the fact that i was the one who said something....and so eb is not speaking to me...which is fine...whatever...because i am not going to apologize for not doing anything wrong...ben apologized and "says" he understand what we were trying to say....but i dunno...i hate when people constantly give criticism to other people but hey themselves can't handle it maturely...it makes me so mad...but what can i do...the "ball isn't in my court anymore"...they will make the decision where this will go from here...i know that for the club that i LOVE so much I did the right thing....and i dont really care anymore if they dont like it...it went on too long without being in the open... and now they know...they deserve to know....and if they are mature enough to realize the point they will understand and if not; i probably lost what little of our friendships that were left...but if that is the price i have to pay for the truth to be told...i guess it was worth it...

MOVING ON

Sunday was fairly good and i once again have some wisdom to pass on...but before that i reiterate :"Church is good for the soul"...i relearned a invaluable lesson and it was as follows : "Do good to those who hate you, pray for those who abuse you"

the scripture was as follows

Scripture: Luke 6:27-38
27 "But I say to you that hear, Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 28 bless those who curse you, pray for those who abuse you. 29 To him who strikes you on the cheek, offer the other also; and from him who takes away your coat do not withhold even your shirt. 30 Give to every one who begs from you; and of him who takes away your goods do not ask them again. 31 And as you wish that men would do to you, do so to them. 32 "If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. 33 And if you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same. 34 And if you lend to those from whom you hope to receive, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, to receive as much again. 35 But love your enemies, and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return; and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High; for he is kind to the ungrateful and the selfish. 36 Be merciful, even as your Father is merciful. 37 "Judge not, and you will not be judged; condemn not, and you will not be condemned; forgive, and you will be forgiven; 38 give, and it will be given to you; good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over, will be put into your lap. For the measure you give will be the measure you get back."


this has made me rethink a lot of my current "friendships".....if you can even call them "friendships"....a good quote is "no one can make you feel inferior without your consent"..and i have decided that i am tired of feeling inferior...and NO ONE any longer has my CONSENT to make me feel like crap....for a few months now my punk has been telling me that i let my friends walk all over me, even though they are seldomly there for me, but all that changes now...if someone treats me like crap i am going to tell them that i dont apprieciate that and tell them they should consider what they are doing to me and our supposed "friendship"...these are pivital moments in my life and i want control over them....

once a long time ago i wrote the follwing and it seems appropriate to restate it again {even though it isn't directed at the same people} i haved loved you dearly and have ALWAYS been there for you...so before you open your mouth to critisize me ...i suggest you question our friendship at the time being...and see if your part of the problem, see if your the reason we have drifted...I tell you all here and now i am not going to stand for being YOUR friend "for a lack of better options"...i am tired of being walked on and tired of being used...so the next time you dont have anyone else...see if i am standing there for you...The IRONIC part is no matter how close we may be how far we made drift and how much i will resent you for your behavior...i will always be here to listen because at some point in everyone's life everybody needs someone to listen...so you see i would rather listen than do what you do what you are doing to me...but dont consider me a friend i am more or less an acquaintance...because you do not deserve the title and the respect to be my friend...

I would like to point out that the part that beings with "the IRONIC part is..." you see even though i am treated like crap in the end i am still there...that relates the the above scripture...see you treat people the way you wish to be treated even though they dont take it to heart...do me the favor and really consider where we have ended up...and think of why...Forgiveness is ALWAYS an option...because good friends deserve to be together....this is from my heart so i desire that you take it too heart as welll...goodbye all love you me

thanks punk for being there...and taking care of me when i feel like crap...i love you...

hello....to day has been good so far...today ihave a job interview which i am kind of excited about...its at red lobster...thats kewl i hope that i get the job...it would be nice to have money again....lol....hmm...what else...kent is really close...i realized that yesterday...and i am excited about next week's meeting because jenelle and i finally get to DEBATE Security Council Reform....whhhooo.... everyone else is pretty mad about it but i am estatic...lol....it is about time that we get to debate this...its so funny that everyone hates the topic and yet they really have NO idea what it is...they are jus following what everyone else has told them...so hahah...it should be tons of fun...lol....Parent teacher confrences are today...whatever...you know...my teachers alll say the same thing..she has an A, she participates in class...etc... so yea i think that is all...ok ttyl love you all me

ps hunny muahhhhhh....have a good day...i love you <----------------------------------------------THIS MUCH------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------>

i have officially decided that i need to live in a sound proof bubble....i have never wanted to take duct tape to as many people in a shorter period of time....i just dont want to listen to all the crap that everyone is saying...it seems so redundent and pointless...i wish that everyone could just grow up and stop that BS...this morning these people kept talking about NOTHING and i wanted to duct tape them so they would shut up...i have reached this point in my life where i have hardly ANY tolerance for this immature BS....i wish everyone would, and could stop...or at least try....i hate to be so impatient but i am going to go crazy....does anyone know where i can get one of those "sound proof bubbles"? perhaps overnight express? grrrrr...i g2g....buh bye love you all -me-

ps...have fun at the concert hunny i love you....

// posted by Jen  @ 8:23 AM